Sunday, January 13, 2013

Red Light, Yellow Light, Green Light.....

Remember the childhood game of Red Light, Yellow Light, Green Light? 
All the kids line up and you have one designated as the 'traffic light' that stands a good way out from the line of kids with her back to the group. The 'traffic light' kid will yell, 'red, yellow or green light!' and depending on the color yelled out, depends on how fast you navigate out to the 'traffic light.' The one who makes it to the traffic light first, wins the game. But the most important rule is 'red light' means STOP! Put on the brakes and stop as fast as you can. If you don't, and you keep moving, you are out of the game. 'Green light' means run like heck and get as far as you can in the time that you are given. 'Yellow light' means you better move forward with caution because at any moment the 'traffic light' is going to change their mind and probably yell 'red light!' Well, in my experience, the hardest part of this game is when the traffic light yells, 'RED LIGHT' and you happen to be running off a 'green light' and you have to stop on a dime.... stopping on a dime was never my specialty..... Many a childhood friend have been bowled over by me as the poor souls just happened to be in front of me when that traffic light yelled 'RED LIGHT!' and they stopped in their tracks and well... let's just say.... I didn't.

So fast forward 37 years.... As an adult, I'm still not very good at stopping on a dime when Life yells, 'RED LIGHT!' 

Enter Dr. Oz [yes, the famous Dr. Mehmet Oz - the one with his own popular TV show.] Last week he had the trainers from the also popular 'Biggest Loser' on his show talking about past Biggest Loser participants, weight loss tips, etc. They were also discussing the newest contestants on this years Biggest Loser... children. I almost turned off the TV when they started talking about the kids. Childhood obesity is a very, very serious problem here in America. But the reason I almost turned it off is because for me, this topic is an Onion Layer. Yes... you read that right. Onion Layer. [For me, there are parts of losing weight that are like peeling an onion. It's not fun. You are not going to enjoy it. It's going to make you cry, sometimes for no reason. There are layers upon layers of 'stuff' you have to face and peel off if you are going to get through the why's of your weight gain to be able to get to the how's of the weight loss.] So growing up an overweight child and now watching my very own child start to show the very same patterns that I was showing at that age... it's an Onion Layer for me.

As bad as I wanted to turn that channel.. I didn't. Maybe I would learn something that would help me... help me with my son so he would be able to grow up on a different path than me and not following right behind me on the same path.... Although I have always been very careful about using the word, 'diet' or 'weight loss'.. simply from observation, he has picked up on what it means to count calories and he will ask how many calories something has in it. The last thing I want is a child obsessed with 'calorie counting or dieting!!' I needed something simpler. I needed something that would give my son more control over what he ate and take the control out of our hands so it didn't seem like we controlled what he ate every single time!! Something he could really understand..... GAHH! I was racking my brain to find a solution to help us......

Man oh man... am I glad I didn't turn that channel!!!! So, enter Joanna Dolgoff, author of 'Red Light, Green Light, Eat Right: The Food Solution That Lets Kids Be Kids.' Her theory is teach kids the different 'colors' of foods.
-Green foods, which are items that are good to eat ANY TIME. These would include all vegetables (without sauces), fresh or frozen fruit, whole grains, low-fat dairy products and lean meat. 
-Yellow foods are those that can be eaten sometimes, peanut butter, vegetables in sauce, fruit juice, grains that are not whole (such as pancakes and waffles), processed cheese, nuts, hot dogs and hamburger meat, and low-fat desserts or condiments.
-The Red foods are ones that we are supposed to eat on rare occasions, and they include french fries, any fried dough, pastry, cookies, cakes, pies, ice cream, crackers, fried food, bacon and other fatty meat, gravy, heavy condiments, and sugared drinks of various kinds. [So basically anything that will provide comfort on really bad days!] 

This concept seemed so simple to me. Could it work? Would he 'get it?' So... I talked with my son about it. And what do ya know.. he grasped the concept immediately. We listed out the different 'colors' of food and agreed as a family that we would do our best to 'live a healthier life.' 

Now let me just add a disclaimer here: ***I have NOT read Joanna Dolgoff's book... yet. I am not promoting her or her book in any way. What I am promoting is a great idea and way of life as the concept of listing foods in colored categories in a way that is simple and easy for a child or adult to understand.

Since we have been using the colors for our food choices, the battle that waged daily in our home over food choices has virtually disappeared. My son is 6 years old and I have seen him make more healthy choices than I have made in my adult life and I cannot tell you how happy it makes me feel!! He is able to make the choices himself and is learning what it means to choose the healthy, wise choice. He is learning that food should be chosen based on the 'good' it does for your body, not always by how good it tastes.

If you have been struggling with teaching your children about healthy choices, I highly recommend this simple concept. It really does work.

We now have a brand new path to go down together as a family and I am excited to see the changes it will make with all of us!

On a 'me' note, it's been a great two weeks with an 11 pounds loss thus far in January! Onward and upward we continue to go...

Blessings!


Friday, January 4, 2013

Yay and Grrr...

Yay!... I lost a total of 6.6 pounds this week. I feel SO GREAT getting that 6 pounds off! However.....

Grrrr!.....  I full on realize that I cannot lose like that every week. I plan to increase my daily calorie allotment, but it is mentally so hard for me to do!

I have started doing squats and also plank on a daily basis. I am on day 4 of this routine and HATED them on day one.. but given how great they make my body feel, I love them now on day 4. I feel like I walk taller, am stronger and feel strong on the inside. I highly suggest trying them both if you have not yet. And I mean it when I say, if I can do squats and planks... SO CAN YOU!

Back to the drawing board I go on my daily calorie allotment. :)

Happy Friday!

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Yogurt Bites!

I. Am. A. Snacker. I love snacks! Coming up with 'healthy' snacks is hard because when I snack, I prefer sweet or salt.. in most cases, both at the same time.

I've seen yogurt bites where you dollop little bites of yogurt on a pan and then freeze them. I've tried that and it's annoying because the bites are so small they melt and sooner than later, you have a melted dollop of semi cold yogurt.

So today I came up with a better idea! Safeway was discontinuing their holiday flavor yogurts and I scored a serious deal of .20 a container! The best part is they had egg nog flavor! Needless to say, I snagged all they had left!

Instead of freezing the little dollops of yogurt, I pulled out the plastic candy molds I have for making homemade peanut butter cups and put 2 spoons of yogurt in each one. Once they were froze and ready, they popped right out of the mold with no problems. I sprinkled Pumpkin Pie Spice on each one and let me tell you... it's better than ice cream. For real. 

You could do this with any flavor yogurt! Just pick your favorite and have some fun with it! I've also seen yogurt covered grapes frozen for snacks. Maybe some day I will try that but for now, I'm going to stick with these. Super easy and super nummy. Does it get any better?

My yogurt bites averaged out to 25 calories each. I can live with that! [Normally, I buy lower calorie yogurt but in this case, cheapskates buying clearance yogurt can't be picky!]

Yes.. that's a bite out of the one... I couldn't wait! ;) Let me know if you make your own!



Brand New Year... Brand New Goals.....

It's that time of year again... time to wave goodbye to 2012 and say hello to 2013. I have made new goals this year and am determined to get'r done!!

As for this blog.. it's my accountability. Whether you are a stranger or a friend, it is helpful to me to know that I will be coming here and reporting my progress! To those of you that follow along on my journey.. Thank you!!

Goal #1 for 2013: Lose 50 pounds! 
Target date: June 22, 2013!

Can I do it? Of course I can! :)

Here is my new favorite snack... 'Baked' Apple!



















- Cut up 1 apple into bite size pieces [I left the skin on. It just doesn't look like it in the picture.]
- Toss it in a bowl with 1 pkt Splenda [or sweetener of your choice] and a dash of cinnamon and 1 T water
- Microwave for 1 minute at a time stirring after each minute until the apples are a consistency you like.
**[2 minutes do it for me.. Any longer and you might have full blown applesauce in your bowl.] I calculated the calories as only 65 for the apple. I don't use enough cinnamon to even count the calories!

***UPDATE*** 12/30/12
This morning, I mixed 2T of a Kashi oatmeal blend I have on hand. It was DELICIOUS!! Almost apple cobbler like in taste.. for breakfast! :)

So.. check back often for updates if you are so inclined!

Blessings and a Happy 2012 to you!



Saturday, December 8, 2012

The Waves of Life

I've been on this boat for 353 days. Alone. 
I've watched as the world continued to turn, and wondered how in the world it could. How could everyone else not know the depth of my grief? There were times I wanted to shout out loud. Make the world stop. Just for a second.. give me a minute to catch up. To catch my breath. 


One minute you are surrounded by everyone. 
     Do you need help?
          No, thanks.
     What can I do?
          Really, nothing.
     How are you?
          Fine.
          How are you?
               Fine....
               How are you?
                    FINE.
                    How are you?
                         I'M FINE!!
     Are you doing OK?
          Getting by...
     Just call if you need anything, OK?
          Sure.
     
                    Hello?......

                                              Is anyone there?.......


                                    HELLOOOOO?

You know what I needed?
Someone.. anyone that is comfortable enough to just sit with me.... in silence.

                        There were four brave enough to offer that kind of friendship.
               ..... and I will never forget... that great and wonderful gift those friends gave me.

Silence.
Sweet, sweet silence.

Tears, a broken heart... and silence.
They go well together.


Alone. 
And all that I have are the memories.

And food.. I have food. 
I love food. 
It doesn't talk... doesn't ask questions... doesn't tell me what I should or shouldn't be doing....

In Dad's last days, after we knew his time was near.. we had the following short conversation:

Dad said out of the blue, "Nanc... promise me just one thing.." As he held up his huge hand with his finger pointed to the sky indicating a #1.
I leaned in closer, Dad was about to give me a wonderful piece of life wisdom! I didn't want to miss a word he was about to say... "What's that, Dad?"
He closed his eyes, opened them again and said, "Just promise... promise me... after I'm gone.. you won't go crazy and gain all your weight back... Sorrow isn't worth that price, Nanc... Remember that... please... promise me you will remember that."
My mouth dropped open in complete surprise at the words my Dad just spoke reached my brain...
"Dad!...... 
And once again he said, "Promise me..."

I promised.....
And it's been hard.

Every pound that I gain, and I've gained a few back, feel like 20 pounds each.
I've got to get control or the guilt alone will kill me.

But, I realize now that Dad didn't mean to put guilt on me if I gained a few pounds... he was trying to tell me then what he already knew... sorrow... it's a hard thing too work through. He knew what it was like to lose over 100 pounds and then gain it back due to great loss in his life. If you don't have an outlet for the sorrow, it will eat you alive, or the case of my Dad and I.... you will eat it alive. 

And the Waves of Life continue... some days it's so smooth my sea looks like glass... and then, out of the blue I'm hit with a 30 foot wave that knocks me off my feet. All I can do is hang on for dear life and pray my boat doesn't sink. I've tried to outrun the waves.. you can't. I've tried to steer around them.. you can't do that either. You just have to take them as they come and hold on with all your heart....

I'm holding on... for dear life.
Thanks for the words of wisdom, Dad... I promised.... and I won't let you down.

Blessings,



Sunday, August 5, 2012

101 Days.....

I was looking through pictures from our vacation to California we took late last summer. We spent a week with my father in law at his home on Lake Tahoe and a week with my mother in law at their home in Nevada City.
It was a wonderful time. Thus far in life, one of my favorites. We were able to do so many fun things... many great memories were made.
So I sat... looking through the pictures on my computer... reliving the fun memories in my mind... and then a picture of me popped up on my computer screen. It was a picture I do not remember seeing before. Given the angle of the picture, I must have taken it.. one of those 'self portrait' types. We are in the car, on the way home from California. Although I have sunglasses on, the curve of my smile... the tilt of my face.... it suddenly threw me back to that passage in time... just a short 11 months ago. I was suddenly overwhelmed with the happiness and contentment that I felt during that long car ride home to Washington state. I remember telling my husband more than once how happy I was and that I didn't want the trip to end. Vacation ending meant we had to go back to 'real life.' Even though, at the time, real life was pretty great too... this vacation was one of those amazing times in life.
I remember vividly, as we drove through the desert like surroundings of Oregon, wondering to myself what life would be bringing us next. I'm one of those people that like to have something off in the future of life to look forward to... I had hope and prayed at that moment in time that whatever life brought would be The Good Stuff.
Unfortunately, as Life often does, it had it's own plans for my family and I.
Two weeks after returning from our amazing vacation, life as I knew it would slowly begin to unravel. I would spend 101 days walking the most emotional journey of my life, hand in hand with my Dad. The outside world would eventually be non-existent to me. I would pull back from the world and spend 100% of my time with my Dad or my husband and son.... my Dad would receive the higher percentage of that time. There would be days that I would think I was going to drown in my own tears and other days I thought I would never smile again. The pain.. was too much. The hurt.. too heavy. The days of our wonderful vacation seemed years ago... but it had only been days. My mind would become forgetful, completely consumed with the pain of what I was living. Phone calls and emails from well meaning friends would go unanswered. Every thought would be prayers, pleading to God for answers, healing, strength and eventually.. to end the suffering and to take my beloved Dad home to Heaven..........
God eventually answers all prayers... and he did. And 8 months later, I'm still trying to find my way out of the fog.. back to my life that somehow... continued on without me mentally present in it.
As the days have passed, I have learned to laugh again... I have found my smile.... I am still working on my heart... it's wounds run deep... but I know will heal in time.
But I post this picture of me because I never want to forget how happy I was in that chapter of my life. I want use the picture to signify what life was like before I walked The Journey of 101 Days.


-3 pounds this week.
Blessings are all around you.... find them.

Love,

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Better Late... Than Never....

This time, I didn't feel like I was going to have a heart attack.
This time, walking into a room of my high school class mates... 25 years later... was no different than walking into a grocery store or any other public place.
For the first time in 43 years, I felt 100% comfortable in my own skin.
There was no comparing myself to the former high school cheerleader..
No eyeing the former high school prom queen - hoping she had gained weight through the years..
Just me, myself and my beautiful soul as I walked through the door to face the people that I spent years growing up with.
.... awkward years....
      ..... it's all a weird passage of time that lives in a fog somewhere in the back of my mind.....
... covered in layers of dust from being left in boxes that have not been opened in years.......

This isn't about those classmates.
This is about ME.
This is about finally... FINALLY... accepting myself for being ME.

Like I told my best friend on the way home that evening... "There wasn't one single person in that room I would change lives with." Not because they don't have great and wonderful lives, but because I love myself and my life so much.



                                                                                   Best friends for 38 years 




                                                            

Live, Laugh, Love... No Regrets.